Trust the Unknown
"Remember all those years you were so fearful, trying to peek ahead, trying to see what the future held. Remember how upset you got, how uncertain and abandoned you felt because you didn't know the plan.
Now life has taken you to a new place, a new place for you but a place that is ancient. All along, you were not supposed to be getting the answers about what the future held. You were supposed to be learning the magical way of trust and inner guidance, learning to feel your way through, trusting and committing to your vision, your energy, your purpose, your place, each day and moment along the way. You were supposed to be learning to allow the universe to magically unfold and trust that it would. You have been learning this lesson. You have been learning it well.
See how you delight in life's magic now, the surprises, the not knowing, the absolute trust in the universe to bring you your answers, manifest your visions, and help when you can't quite see. See how much you cherish your relationship to the universe, a relationship so much broader and more encompassing, so much more vital than you could ever before imagine. See how joyfully you walk your path, enjoying all the sights, opening your heart to loved ones and strangers.
See how benevolent it really is when you are not able to see ahead. Not knowing has taught you about life's magic. It has connected you to yourself and the universe."
- Melody Beattie, Journey to the Heart
A good friend of mine suggested I read the book Journey to the Heart when I was feeling particularly lost and unsure of what I was doing or who I was supposed to be. Isn't it a funny thing to think, that we as human beings often get lost and caught up in who we are supposed to be - as if it is anything other than our true, trusted, authentic selves? But who can honestly say that they know themselves? So far I know that I have a beating heart, lungs that love to take in all the oxygen they can get, a body that constantly needs to move, and a mind that loves to wander. I am working on trusting the unknown, and trusting in myself even, and it will be a journey, but a beautiful one at that!
This excerpt from Journey to the Heart is dated for October 2nd. Which is pretty amazing, because yesterday marked the first Sunday of my new endeavour. The first Sunday I didn't have to prepare a lunch, or prep for the week (though, maybe I should still be doing these things hehe), because it's my first week no longer working as a full-time Preschool Teacher. I've decided to jump in, trust the unknown, and see what the universe has to offer. I'm not dwelling on the future and what it may have in store for me, I'm focusing on the present, the here and now. You kind of have to take it day by day when you decide to quit your full-time job and pursue your dreams!
I'm so incredibly happy to take on this journey, and I can't even begin to thank those around me who have shown me so much love and support since I've decided to take this on - you are all beautiful, amazing souls, and your kind hearts have made me even more mushy and happy and glad and joyous than I ever have been - who would've thought that was possible? I find myself coming to tears of joy so often lately, I'm just so darn happy! I would not be half the person I am today without the lessons, love and support of those in my life, and I am forever grateful for that. Your encouraging words, offerings from the universe, and that wandering mind of mine have all brought me to come to this journey - let's just trust the unknown.
Thank you, thank you, thank you!
Peace, love love LOVE & light to all of you beautiful souls today and everyday (: